| Tuesday, June 05, 2007 |
| the heartbreak & similarity with HYD |
"Maybe cupid should shoot himself with his own damn arrow so he can feel how much love hurts."
It's been days since sis
Chamie stayed-over. We hanged-out and watched the whole
Hana Yori Dango series [marathon every night] on dvd, in the process of momentarily distracting herself from bad thoughts of her present predicament. By the way, she also caught a bit of my
Matsu Jun and
Oguri Shun fever. (What can I say? I "contaminate" people easily!)
It's been days since she's depressed. It was not something simple that one could easily dismiss for a week or a month. Her problem is
that serious. I have no intention of putting her and her bf's story here on my blog. I'd just like you guys to know that she's kind of "ok" for the meantime and that hopefully you would give her support, as friends do. Being her best friend, it's hard for me to see her like this and I can only imagine how much she feels.
(Ok, for clues.. think of
Domyouji, Tsukushi, Shigeru, and their dilemma minus the company problem, the cruel mother, and the
Tsukushi-Shigeru friendship. There's really a similarity but it's not exactly like that. So that would mean.. I'd be playing the role of
Yuki..
un nga lang there's no
Soujiro and I'm kinda thankful for that. Wouldn't want to get involved with a playboy, ne? (Even if he's as good-looking as
Matsuda Shota with that suave personality I like.)
*sigh* If you know of her situation and their stories, you really wouldn't think it would end that way.
So there ya go. I've been listening to her stories, her thoughts on the matter, her what-ifs.. It somehow reminds me of the pain I felt when I was the one uber-depressed. I know our situation's
so different but you know how it's like to empathize. You recall stuff. *sigh* I've been distracting/cheering her up and I've also "left" her alone sometimes when it seems like she needs to "talk" to herself. She told me that for now she's good but maybe only because I'm with her and hanging-out with me helps her mind wander away from him. Not totally of course, but she'd think of him less than usual when she's depressed. I wonder how she'll handle herself when she goes back to her place where she'll most probably lock herself up in her room and contemplate.
School's gonna start next week and I hope that even though we are far apart, we have our own things going on, and we wouldn't frequently be with her, let's take the time every once in a while to check up on her, ok guys?
Labels: currents, friend(s), love, tv series
<3 i thought of you @6/05/2007 08:14:00 PM
my love don't cost a thing
| Sunday, May 20, 2007 |
| Fight-o! Oh! |
I finished watching Gokusen1 J-dorama a few days ago. [marathon!] It's funny how the serious moments really got to me. Yes, I did cry on some occasions. XD I was struck by Yankumi's strong dedication and her principles. You rarely get to meet teachers like her nowadays. Perhaps that's what the manga/anime/jdrama wants us to realize.. that teachers are people to look up to (the ones that deserve to be called one) even though sometimes they may seem like a pain.. that our parents love us and are proud of us no matter what we do.. that friends must stick together through hard times and the good.. that trust can go a along way, even with delinquents.. that it's our decision which makes us who we are (not our bloodline.. hey, sounds Dumbledore-ish).. and that fights are quite honorable in some angle.
Yankumi with her students and the two detectives.
The lessons and principles she share with her students, coupled with patience and strong dedication to them, and her devotion to teaching, sets her apart from other teachers. The fact that she can relate to them (coz of her Yakuza heritage) helps too. I'd like to point out another thing about her:
age. It's another factor. I mean, maybe it's also because she's young and a newbie at teaching that made her associate with students quite loosely er.. rather passionately than other older teachers (with much experience and so to say.. erm.. have been fed up with most of their student's crappy attitudes..). But then again, you don't have to be young and a novice to be like
Yankumi as a teacher, ne? It's in the heart! ..though you gotta admit, adults get frustrated easily by those kinds of anthics.. =P
The teachers and Yankumi's men.
One thing's for sure,
Kumiko Yamaguchi is officially now on my
List of Female Characters To Look Up To, along with
Honda Tohru (of
Fruits Basket),
Yukimura Keiko (of
Yu Yu Hakusho) and others. "Fight-o! Oh!" ^^
I'd like to give credit to
3-D The Gokusen fanlisting site for the pics I put up above. If you're a fan, go join now!
Hala hehe..
One last thing:
Matsumoto Jun's hair in the series really suits him. He looks cool with long-ish hair length. ^^
Labels: thoughts, tv series, with pics
<3 i thought of you @5/20/2007 11:47:00 AM
my love don't cost a thing
| Thursday, May 03, 2007 |
| the cause of cold, lovin' lugaw & coffee |
It's been approximately three days since I had the cold/flu. It's kinda funny how I was half-expecting that I would wind up sick this week or the next. I had that thought two weeks before. It was some kind of a 'test-thought'. Since it's been so hot lately and my room usually resembles a sauna in mid-morning and early afternoon, you could very well imagine how I would look and what I would crave. (sweating = wanting to refresh = air condition/electric fan = sweat will disappear temporarily = allergy attack/cold/pneumonia after continuous cycle)
I hate sweating. Sweat is good if you're doing sports or working out. It would mean your body's reacting from strenuous activities and the like. Sweat is good when you're in a sauna. It would mean you're body's reacting to releasing your toxins and et cetera. But sweating just because you changed your sleeping position is something on a whole different level of making me pissed. I mean, how would you feel if you'd want to sleep but then you're soaking in your own bed and the electric fan is producing hot air?
I would blame the smoke from siga and various bad gases some sprays produce. Don't people know it affect our ozone layer? Would they want their summer days to mean skin diseases and don't-you-dare-go-outside-and-expose-yourself-to-the-sun vacation? (UV rays!) It would totally ruin summer vacation! As a matter of fact, days ago I remember myself muttering about how I dislike summer now, despite the word 'vacation' after it, just because it's waaay hotter than usual and that my 'friends' still haven't decided on an outing spot!
For crying out loud, don't you guys wanna get together before the grueling 2nd year of college learning begins?
Anyway, back to me and my health condition. So I was thinking, 'I wonder how long until I come down with something?' And after almost two weeks, here we go! I finally came down with a cold. Who'd thought it would take me more than ten days for this! My resistance sure went up compared to when I was little. That makes me happy. =)
But happiness stopped there. x_x For three days now, my throat hurts and itches, my eyes are watery and sometimes itchy, my ears are 'popping', and I constantly cough and sniffle. Of course it's worse than my usual allergy attacks. Yesterday I slept around 3am just coz I drank 3 mugs of coffee (to soothe my throat), skipped dinner, and read a bunch of fanfictions. After sleeping for about two hours, I woke up past 5am, feeling more terrible. As the coughing and sneezing ensues, I stayed awake for a few hours and then drifted off to sleep again.
I woke up around lunch time and ate lugaw with some non-flavored Skyflakes. I also took my medicine then I read a bit of my old books and slept again. (See how the cycle goes?) I woke up in the afternoon, went downstairs and watched Bleach and Hana Yori Dango Jdrama.
Side note: It seems that the Japanese version portrayed Tsukasa and Rui's friendship tighter (than expected) than in the Meteor Garden series. I actually teared-up watching Tsukasa bid farewell to Rui. =O
Mental note: I knew I should've bought the HYD Jdrama dvd that day when I had the chance! Argh! Now I have to settle for dub on GMA. The voice acting is nice though; the two main characters' voices were played by my favorite Tagalog dubbers. What I'm worried about is.. Did GMA cut some scenes or not?
Back to my sickness.. So after that, I watched Gilmore Girls season 2 (for the fourth time I think) while non-stop eating lugaw, crackers and drinking chamomile tea. (I became very fond of lugaw.) When it got late, I went to my room, changed into my old sweater and checked emails and fanfictions. After a while, my throat started itching again so I gave in to making coffee. I drank coffee while reading then I felt sleepy and went to bed.
Ironic how sometimes coffee calms me. I makes me wanna get a coffeemaker. Damn, I should stop this coffee craze before I devote myself to it.. must resist..
*sigh* And now here I am, sniffling momentarily, hoping that I would never catch cold again (simply because I hate itchy throat, the coughing and the sneezing). Why did I expected this in the first place? I knew I would be getting it anyhow. =_= Nakakainis.. Ngayon pa namang gusto ko uminom ng coke kahit konti.. ung malamig.
One last thing, I've a question. Is the english of lugaw porridge? If not, what is it? Just curious.
Nga pla, special greetings: Happy bday to Tita Cruzie! Hehe.. I remembered. I greeted her last year so, I'm doing it again.. La lang.. I miss you na, pare.
Labels: currents, sick, thoughts, tv series
<3 i thought of you @5/03/2007 04:31:00 PM
my love don't cost a thing
| Saturday, March 10, 2007 |
| emo, Gilmore Girls addiction |
Wish I could be
Every little thing you wanted
All the time
Sometimes
~Every Little Thing; Dishwala
I enjoy listening to emo/punk music now, since
Kuya Norman put a bunch of songs on
Peter (my computer) and asked me to try them. As it turned out, they're great.
Here's my current playlist:
Somewhere In The Middle - Dishwala
Every Little Thing - Dishwala
Letters To You - Finch
Stand By Me - Oasis
Save Yourself - Sense Field
Never Easy - Solace
Save Me - Remi Zero
Photograph - Nickelback
Someday - Nickelback
Dare You To Move - Switchfoot
Will You Ever Learn - Typecast
You Wanted More - Tonic
Ocean Avenue - Yellowcard
Empty Apartment - Yellowcard
I'd like to take this out before I babble about my current addiction:
It's sad na ung pinagsamahan ay parang wala na.. Guys, wala kayong effort na magkaroon ng contact. May mobile at phone naman, di ba? Nakakalungkot.
+++For one week I became a
glutton (something that happened once in my lifetime).. stuffing myself with food (mostly rice) every meal and I must say, it's effective. I gained a pound or two. Then the next week I got fed up (mind the pun). The next week I started staying up early in the morning again, lost appetite, and eat late
merienda. You recall that "pound or two" that I was talking about? It's gone [again]. And dark circles are added.
So I learned that [lack of] sleep is more fatal to my health. (Even though I still complete the 8hrs rule.)
But I desperately needed a
distraction from all the mess I've been having.
I turned to the idiot box for help. (I know I've been neglecting it since I got the internet, hoping I'd save some electricity even for a bit.) So I've been watching
Gilmore Girls (marathon!) since I got the dvds. (I've always wanted to watch it over and over and over again coz I
miss it!) Downside: I keep staying up.. like till 1pm. Read the sentence that stated what I learned again.
Yeah. Tough.
Season 3
pa lang ako. Dami ko pala na-miss the epi dati. I've watched up to season 4 actually, a few episodes missed coz of school and such.
By the way, I realized that coffee is good without milk too.
I know I should stop drinking coffee again. (I drink like twice a month even though I love the thing! Can you feel my control?)
I'll post up the comparison between
Gilmore Girls and my life later.
La lang..
Oh yeah.. and I painted my nails
Tequilla Sunrise. It's a cross between peach and orange.
KyootLabels: currents, health, love, song(s), tv series
<3 i thought of you @3/10/2007 11:48:00 AM
my love don't cost a thing
| Tuesday, November 01, 2005 |
| sentimental air.. |
Last night when we went to the kapilya in Cavite, there were a lot of Iglesia and non-Iglesia people gathering around, wearing semi-formal attire. It kinda sucked for me since I was wearing pants. But then again, they were black pants... So I guess it wasn't that embarassing after all. Besides, there were some people wearing denim. Anyway, too bad Francis didn't get to come with us. He would've enjoyed being there, looking at all the "budget". Drix didn't show up. I didn't get to ask why but I heard he was with Ace. They probably hanged-out instead.
It was the first time I've ever gotten close to a kapilya (We got inside a few minutes before the "lecture" was done.). I took a few shots of it from the outside on my mobile. It looked spectacular. As I stood there, I wondered who thought of that kind of architecture. He must be European. ^^' hehe...
Tita Nhora was happy coz she got to be with her pals there. There was a lil reunion thing going around. I guess the sentimental air got to me.. It was the first time I missed him since the 28th. I guess I never wanted to miss him and I kept avoiding things that remind me of him. There were times when Chamie, Aica, and Tita were teasing me, singing Nina's I Love You, Goodbye song. I never liked that song even before the incident but now.. It became significant to me. I can now relate to it. It was then they started teasing me about going to his house for a visit. The whole joke was going fine so I really couldn't think of why I suddenly became... affected. I slowly turned around, forcing myself not to give in. But a few seconds later and I did. But not that much! I mean, it was just a few teardrops ok? I don't want to cause a scene there! I forced myself to stop. To lighten the mood, Chamie and Aica "accused" Tita of making me cry. We laughed. They know better than to make the whole thing such a drama. Thanks guys.
*sigh* Now that I think about it, it's funny how the object of my depression seemed like a break-up story. Well, it isn't. The fact is... It was never really us. Long story. I wanna forget about it.
Anyway, Chamie's sleeping over. ^^ We just watched Sassy Girl Chun-Hyang. My gosh! The sudden turn of events really got to me. I just love that type of series, that type of plot, and especially the character development. *ahem* The characters' situations were really close to our situation. But then he left.. "Marvin" didn't. He really loves her.. "Marvin" got over "Charina". *sigh* Well, I guess only their past situations we could relate to.
Supposedly, tomorrow's our first day back to school. Francis made a survey and he said that most of our classmates refuse to go back to school. They said they're going back on the 7th. So I've decided to do the same. I planned that I'm going to have a haircut tomorrow. Hopefully, this time it's going to happen. Tita suggested a new look: with bangs! I haven't had bangs since elementary. I wonder if it'll look fine. Oh well, I'll find out tomorrow when I consult some hair stylist..person hehe. She said maybe I should try to change myself and I agree. It's time to change my image a bit. Ganbatte Aya! Dekiru ne! ^^ When I come back to school, they'll see the new me! Well, I'll still be like my old self but.. improved. ^^
Labels: event(s), friend(s), place(s), song(s), tv series
<3 i thought of you @11/01/2005 11:06:00 PM
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